They're still here! The emotions, that is. I've already written about how I feel a little crazy during pregnancy. Nothing's changed. In fact the closer to having the baby I get, the closer to the surface the emotions are. Like most things in life happen for a reason, this weekend I was able to come to a realization that there are good reasons we women are so sensitive at certain times in our life. We had a wonderfully uplifting weekend at Stake conference. I only made it to the adult session and a fabulous youth fireside, and Treavor came home with great notes for me from the actual session. It was another tearful weekend, this time 99% happy tears. The veil is particularly thin during pregnancy don't you think? I learned the past couple of days that this possibly is one of the reasons we are created to feel so deeply as women. I think we are meant to feel the magnitude and depth of the huge blessing it is to bring a spirit into this beautiful world. I was overcome with the miracle of birth, life, creation and the calling of motherhood.
We sang I Need Thee Every Hour, a song that's always been a favorite of mine, but had even more meaning to me. I love the line that says "...in joy or in pain, come quickly and abide or life is vain." my mortal life of course has it's trials and hardships, but over all is exceptionally happy. So much, that often times I wonder if I'm a wimp and can only handle teeny tiny stresses. I love this hymn because it reminds me how much I need the Lord, even (and especially) when life is particularly joyful.
So the next time I get frustrated that I break down in tears when a neighbor says Owen will be a good big brother, or I snap at my husband for not much of a reason at all, or I'm losing patience with my innocent toddler, I will be grateful for all the good (like sensitivity to the spirit, and an extra closeness to the Lord) these crazy emotions bring.
Owie had a pretty fulfilling weekend as well:
Playing outside pant-less
feeling pretty cool in some shades
And who-da-thunk dog food could provide hours of entertainment
Every day?!
I'm not complaining.
6 comments:
What a beautiful perspective, Sara! It's so true too. I kind of love that part of it, that kind of sensitivity to the Spirit and all the good that comes from that. I know I always say this, but I just get the warmest, happiest feeling when I think of you and your sweet, sweet family. Our prayers will be with all of you as you welcome this sweet new babe into your lives! Love you!
I do love that we feel so deeply, but some days I wish it wasn't quite sooo much...the tears don't stop!!! What a fun time in your family's life. If you ever need a day to get yourself ready and take a deep breath we'd LOVE to have Owen come play- it'd keep my kids busy! Call me when you need him to come over!
I love your posts Sara. Owen is so cute. AND I love your yellow chairs. How fun and happy that is in your kitchen.
Dog food - who knew it could be so entertaining? Those are awesome pictures & very deep insights! Thanks for being able to put into words what we all think!! You are amazing - we are so excited to meet Baby Peters in a few days!!!
You have such a way with expressing things! I love it! I'm so excited for you to have another little jammer. If he is half of what Owen is, you'll have it made! He is too cute and looks so grown up.
That song is very tender to me as well. I cry every time I sing or hear it. So grateful to read your inspiring thoughts. You have blessed our lives. Thanks for falling in love with Treavor!!
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