rainy days

The old computer that I use to update is having issues. I'm not able to currently download pictures. Which means, that for today, words will have to do.

The last week, the weather has been really different for this time of year. It's been rainy, cloudy and cool. It actually perfectly represents my emotional state. That sounds depressing, and it's really not. I love rain. I love the coziness  and the freshness it gives the green earth. I love the reminder that it gives me of God's creations and the way he controls the elements. I love the sound it makes and the misty breeze it brings. I love that it urges me to stay in and do housework and play with kids, when typically, I look for reasons to get out of the house.

This weather has been so appropriate for the flood of emotions that have come over me. They aren't all good, but they definitely aren't bad. They're complex and contemplative. They're  nervous and nostalgic. They're excited and even ready. Believe it or not, my emotions are kind of ready for the big changes coming our way.

The day after tomorrow my sweet baby Owie goes to Kindergarten. HE is ready. he's almost 6. he knows his abc's and 123's. He has grown socially and physically and will thrive in the bright happy setting full of blocks and paints and numbered hooks. He will gain confidence with the beaming teacher that we met a couple nights ago who smiled huge and told him he's cute.

The very next week, my grabby crazy gooey Lewie will go to Discovery. I asked him tonight as i pulled his jammie shirt over his just bathed, squeaky clean face if he's excited to start school. He said "yeth" stretching his arms out wide  "i will meet thooooo many friendth". And that is exactly what he will do.

Just like the rain makes me feel grateful, blessed, comfortable and humble. So do these milestones in my children's lives. I cant quite put into words what I feel at times like these, but I know I feel a lot. It's a feeling that takes me off guard every once in a while, literally taking my breath away. Its a feeling that only a mother's heart has had the privilege and pain of feeling. I've loved the rain and the way for me, it symbolically wrapped up our summer.