1.28.2015

lets be honest.

Motherhood. Best job in the world. Nothing I'd rather do. Brings me joy. Deep satisfaction. Humbles me. My biggest blessing. My true love.

But......

In the spirit of honesty and hope that writing it down might be somewhat therapeutic, the last few days, its just been the pits!!

Nothing particularly horrible or even bad has happened. But. I am exhausted. I am worn out. I have headaches. I get yelled at by my 15 month old all day long. she is loud and opinionated and likes treats and candy and doesn't have a problem using all her waking hours to yell for what she wants. I get ignored by my three year old all day long. He is distracted and gets sidetracked and would rather play and live inside his wonderfully imaginative and paralyzing bubble than move or work, or help or put a coat on or really anything his mom asks him to do. he steps on me with his giant heavy cast and has mastered a ridiculously heavy, dead-weight, deafening  tantrum. My brain gets overworked by my 6 year old all day long. He is full of questions and stories and hypotheticals. He asks to read chapter after chapter and play game after game and has homework and a writing journal and a reading chart and I know this stuff is only going to get worse and more involved as the years go on, but right now, I am maxed out.

I feel like I never get a break. All day I want a nap and when night time comes, After I have hushed one million hushes and cleaned up throw up and done dishes and looked at the laundry on the floor that I'll decide to leave right there, I crawl into bed and blog instead of sleep. Because I don't want the morning to come quite yet.

I better end on a happy note and think about the way these three little munchkins bring me such bliss. and since I'm too tired to write about, I'll just look at these sweet photos.




















New

Lewis broke his foot. He was playing super heroes in the basement. Owen pretended to shoot lightning at him. Lewis threw himself off the couch and landed weird. Its so sad to se such a speedy, mobile, active, energetic kid with limitations. but he's handled it like a champ!! He can roll with the punches better than almost anyone I know.  His optimistic mellowness reminds me a lot of Treavor. 




Owen lost his tooth. Big day!! he wiggled it and it just came right out. He walked into the kitchen with a big smile on his face and his tooth in his hand saying "I didn't mean to, but look what happened!" He looks very grown up with that cute little gap"


Kitty let me paint her toenails.  Have you ever seen cuter, pudgier, polished toes?



Sunbeam Boy






Little Lewie started primary.  He was ready and excited! He came home from his first day with a set of scriptures that had been given to him. He's never loved anything more. He said to me " lets write a note and say thank you for the scriptures and then sell it to the primary". He told the extended family multiple times that he has his own scriptures. And day after day he would say to me "i'm going to go read my scriptures" one day he was in the front room reading his scriptures and he came into the other room where I was cleaning and said "mom. I love the scriptures, and I'm so glad I'm a child."

A little more Christmas